Spread Your Wings

Change is scary as shit... 

Change is scary because it starts first in the mind which is typically the most difficult to change. Change makes you acknowledge fear; "are you afraid of change?" I ask myself that often before transitions come to mentally prepare. The fear of change will eat you alive because its inevitable; however If you embrace change you grasp a key lesson to life and that's being able to adapt and adjust. Change isn't always welcomed however... 

Nothing endures but change.” ― Heraclitus

Change is apart of the journey and one must recognize within the journey your transition points. Transition points come when you have hit your peak in a specific place in life and there is this demand or expectation for more. The feeling that you can be doing more that you are supposed to be doing more. This is  the universal call for you to make a change and if ignored you will see whats around you self destruct. Don't ignore transition points! I feel as if I have ignored them and now everything around me seems to be falling apart. 

Personal change is where it all starts...

As I learn more about myself I learn about my father too. Growing up  my father was around a little but I cant really say I know him. As I get to know me I see him in me both good and bad. My father was an athlete and so was I. He's into martial arts and mentoring and coaching and all the same things as me. When I was in college he sent me a poem he had written about Muhammad Ali and I wondered if he knew that I write poetry too; or even if he knew that Ali was my favorite athlete of all time. My sisters and mother say I act just like him and honestly it doesn't make me hate him it makes me appreciate him more because I believe that when I learn to love myself then I must too learn to love who and what I come from. That statement is deeper than I have time to explain but everything and everyone is a reflection of you. 

Be the Change you wish to see... 

I became a man and was able to learn what was necessary to build for the generations to come despite my upbringing and my lack of role models that exemplify what a man is.  As an African man growing up in Amerikkka with no identity from birth I found my self Lost. After losing religion it became a mission of mine to find out who I am inside and where do I come from. After a divorce, many sleepless nights, death, tears and all of the pain I have had to endure just to be able to look at myself in the mirror and say I AM; I can say that I know myself. I wish this experience for every African to reclaim his or her identity/ throne. For him or herself to find and identify with their purpose in their lives,  families, community and this universe or lifetime that we are in currently  living in today.  

Its on me; I have learned that and have recently come to terms with that fact. All the burdens and all the trauma isn't for us to carry around and bitch about; its for us to use as paint to throw on this canvas we call life. Its fuel to drive us forward into our visions and aspirations. I have dreams to build a sustainable future not just for me but for everything and everyone I come in contact with. That is my life calling that I can no longer run from and that is precisely why this Eagle must break from his cage and fly.

Fuck fear! I'll leave that bastard behind once I leap so...

RIP to fear and all of those who are afraid to fly. I guess I  will see you next lifetime on the other side of Fear, on the other side of agony and the other side of defeat. I wont be complaining about shit any longer. I will devote the rest of my life to spreading my wings and flying. For those who doubt me, hate me or attempt to hold me back... Cover your heads cause you'll probably get shit on. Peace..

Lost Boy Out 

 

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